Wednesday, February 10, 2021

I'M PRETENDING

PRETENDING


I am broken

I cannot be fixed

I have hurt before

But not like this


So I'm pretending


Yeah I'm pretending

that you're here with me

I can't take the pain, the reality

That for now it just can't be


So I'm pretending


I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will


So I'm pretending


Yeah I'm pretending

That you're on the road

Having too much fun 

to bother calling home


Still Pretending....


I keep waiting for it to get better

But there's no way to deal with this

Unthinkable's my only answer

When you were such an amazing kid


No, I can't face the truth...

Life is too hard without you

So lonely without you 

So I'm pretending


I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will


I'm pretending

you're not really gone

It's the only way

I keep living on

By Pretending   


Teresa Lynn Johnson

Wrdspnr@aol.com

C2021



Tuesday, July 23, 2019

IN A REALM WITH YOU

I entered a new realm
when you kissed my lips
I've lived my whole life
and never felt like this

I was grounded

~~~*Chorus*~~~
I look back at thee old me
And I have to shed a tear
Think of all that I was missing
When I wasn't loving here
Here in a realm with you
ooh ooh ooh....
In a realm with you
~~*~~

Yeah, here I'm sensing things
That I can't mention
I want to be with you
in this dimension

Yes, I'm floating

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~
In a realm without the want of a single possession
Nothing matters anymore, but this fire-hot obsession
That old me, left behind, she and I are through
I'll never, in this life, get enough of loving you
ooh ooh ooh...
Here in a realm with you..
~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~
I look back at thee old me
And I have to shed a tear
Think of all that I was missing
When I wasn't loving here
Here in a realm with you
ooh ooh ooh....
In a realm with you
~~*~~


Teresa Lynn Johnson
Copyright© 2019
Wrdspnr@aol.com

Friday, July 5, 2019

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY

On the 4th of July we declared our freedom
We'd formed our United States
George the 3rd ruled the Monarchy
And the French helped hold our gates

General Washington led our soldiers
To keep enemies from its shores
With our allies by our side
Britain reigned no more

~~~*Chorus*~~~
Freedom's what wars are challenged for
There will be certain death
Shouted out by every Man's 
What Patrick Henry said
And there would be more
To reign means war
But hey!
Happy Independence Day!
~~*~~

The battle for the seas was the second war
With no reason to be fighting anymore
Too late we'd opened up that door
Britain came from Canada and to our shores

So many died for Freedom's cry
But when the blood was washed away
Our second war for Independence
Sustains us to this day
Hey!
Happy Independence day!

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~
Yes, I celebrate our freedom from the monarchy
I live in the United States
I know her flaws, her fallacies
And I also know what makes her great
I thank the troops that keep her free
The men who've lived and died for her
The brilliant minds, spread over time
Those who are and those who were
Hey! 
Happy Independence Day!
~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~
Freedom's what wars are challenged for
There will be certain death
Shouted out by every man's 
What Patrick Henry said
And there would be more
To reign means war
But hey!
Happy Independence Day!
~~*~~



Teresa Lynn Johnson
Copyright ©2019
Wrdspnr@aol.com 








Thursday, June 27, 2019

WORTH THE RISK

It was the 10th of May 
Senior year last day
Went home to kick back and relax
Stopped to grab the mail 
was a post from jail
Had to be my cousin Jack

He said he was afraid
He would call today
Sure hoped that I'd be home
And the more I read
The more he could be dead
He should have left that girl alone

~~~*Chorus*~~~
He wrote it's not fair
With her honeyed hair
And her pretty pink kiss-me-lips
Let me tell you now
You would see just how
Oh, Cousin she was worth the risk
~~*~~

Well he called at eight
Summoned up his fate
His chances were mighty slim
The girl who stole his heart
The Angel's work of art
Her Daddy was the sheriff's kin

It was ten o'clock
When I heard the knock
And when I opened my front door
The farmer's daughter's face
Put me in my place
Here's what he went to jail for

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~
Jack found Aphrodite in a teen aged form
Sittin on a tractor in a field of corn
Seventeen and suntanned from her head to toe
If you're gonna hang she was the way to go
~~*~~

And she was right there
With her honeyed hair
And her pretty pink kiss-me-lips
Let me tell you now
I can see just how
He figured she was worth the risk

~~~*Finale*~~~
Well Jack didn't die
Yeah the judge was kind
So if you're gonna hit don't miss
A new chance at life
With his pretty bride
Oh, buddy she was worth the risk
~~*~~

Teresa Lynn Johnson
Kane Allen Holmes
Copyright© 2019
Wrdspnr@aol.com

Monday, June 3, 2019

WHAT SEPARATES US

I walked into your house today
Looked at the pictures you'd displayed
And tried hard not to cry

Wish I could see you sitting there
Hot cup of tea messed up red hair
I want to look into your eyes

See what I didn't know
How far you'd planned to go
I would not have left your side
Girl, I miss that smile...

~~~*Chorus*~~~
All that used to separate us
was the distance of miles
Talking on the telephone
I pictured your smile
And your laughter 
Brought out mine
All that used to separate us
was time...
~~*~~

I think about you every day
Still cry because you went away
And didn't say goodbye

Wish I could see you once again
Before the world comes to an end
So you could tell me why

I want to look into your eyes
See what I didn't know
How far you'd planned to go
I would not have left your side
Girl, I miss that smile...

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~
You have to know you broke the hearts
Of everyone you left
Because now what separates us is your
death...
We Love you and we miss you , Your memory
 fills our heads
Because now what separates us is your death...
~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~
All that used to separate us
was the distance of miles
Talking on the telephone
I pictured your smile
And your laughter 
Brought out mine
All that used to separate us
was time..
~~*~~

~~~*Finale*~~~
Sometimes the pain's so bad
I can't catch my breath
Because what separates us
Is your death...
~~*~~
Teresa Lynn Johnson
Wrdspnr@aol.com
Copyright © 2019
#suicide #Memories
#Helpless

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

THE COST OF LOVING

The snow is falling
And the lights blur with my tears
I'm remembering
Her Love throughout the years

As the lights dance
With those flakes so brilliant white
I see the beauty
But not the reason why

~~~*1st Chorus*~~~
The reason why He chose someone
Who'll leave so many lost
When you know He knows the damage
Yeah, the cost
Tell me why's 
The cost so high
~~*~~

I see her in the bleachers 
With the crowd
I hear her on the sidelines 
Screaming loud

Her pretty face at every game
Shouting out that lucky name

Tell me why's
The cost so high

It does not make sense to me
Now she has to fight to breathe
Someone so young 
Should not hurt like she does

Someone we Love

God tell me why
Is the cost so high

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~
Good people live, and love, and try
To make the most out of their lives
And then you strike them down 
Before their time
Why
Why's the cost so high
~~*~~

I just need to know the reason why....

~~~*2nd Chorus*~~~
The reason why You chose someone
Who'll leave so many lost
When I know You know the damage
Yeah, the cost
Tell me why's 
The cost so high
~~*~~

~~~*Finale*~~
I see the beauty of loving deep inside....
But I wonder why.....
Why's the cost so high
~~*~~


TeresaLynnJohnson
Copyright © 2019
Wrdspnr@aol.com
Aunt Patty <3



Tuesday, January 29, 2019

THAT BEAUTIFUL, MAGICAL, SMILE

You say that you're broken
I believe you
But girl I really need you 
To stay strong

To keep holding on

To whatever magic moved you
For so long

No way to prove to you
The miracles 
That shine on through

That smile

Every time I've doubted life
Hurt so bad I want to cry
I think of all the power
You have shown

Strength I've never known

Don't know what I expect
From  you
Cause the Hell that you've
Been living through

Most people would have 
Gave up as a child

While the rest of us screamed,
"No Fair!"
You pulled magic from thin air

And all the while...
Shared that smile

Yeah I know that you 
Are broken
Known for a long time
But reality is killing me
I'd rather see the smile..

It's the proof 
You have magic
We can see

And it's beautiful
So beautiful to me

And, Yes, I've cursed the fates
Even God with all his grace
As I know you've had to do 
a million times

But you've always smiled

That beautiful 

Magical

Smile


TeresaLynn Johnson
Wrdspnr@aol.com
Copyright © 2019 
For you ...Autumn Marie
I am , as always, in awe! 
Love, Teresa 
#Strength #FriedreichsAtaxia
#Faith