I'M PRETENDING

PRETENDING

I am broken

I cannot be fixed

I have hurt before

But not like this

So I'm pretending

Yeah I'm pretending

that you're here with me

I can't take the pain, the reality

That for now it just can't be

So I'm pretending

I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will

So I'm pretending

Yeah I'm pretending

That you're on the road

Having too much fun 

to bother calling home

Still Pretending....

I keep waiting for it to get better

But there's no way to deal with this

Unthinkable's my only answer

When you were such an amazing kid

No, I can't face the truth...

Life is too hard without you

So lonely without you 

So I'm pretending

I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will

I'm pretending

you're not really gone

It's the only way

I keep living on

By Pretending   

Teresa Lynn Johnson

Wrdspnr@aol.com

C2021

IN A REALM WITH YOU

I entered a new realm

when you kissed my lips

I've lived my whole life

and never felt like this

I was grounded

~~~*Chorus*~~~

I look back at thee old me

And I have to shed a tear

Think of all that I was missing

When I wasn't loving here

Here in a realm with you

ooh ooh ooh....

In a realm with you

~~*~~

Yeah, here I'm sensing things

That I can't mention

I want to be with you

in this dimension

Yes, I'm floating

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~

In a realm without the want of a single possession

Nothing matters anymore, but this fire-hot obsession

That old me, left behind, she and I are through

I'll never, in this life, get enough of loving you

ooh ooh ooh...

Here in a realm with you..

~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~

I look back at thee old me

And I have to shed a tear

Think of all that I was missing

When I wasn't loving here

Here in a realm with you

ooh ooh ooh....

In a realm with you

~~*~~

Teresa Lynn Johnson

Copyright© 2019

Wrdspnr@aol.com

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY

On the 4th of July we declared our freedom

We'd formed our United States

George the 3rd ruled the Monarchy

And the French helped hold our gates

General Washington led our soldiers

To keep enemies from its shores

With our allies by our side

Britain reigned no more

~~~*Chorus*~~~

Freedom's what wars are challenged for

There will be certain death

Shouted out by every Man's 

What Patrick Henry said

And there would be more

To reign means war

But hey!

Happy Independence Day!

~~*~~

The battle for the seas was the second war

With no reason to be fighting anymore

Too late we'd opened up that door

Britain came from Canada and to our shores

So many died for Freedom's cry

But when the blood was washed away

Our second war for Independence

Sustains us to this day

Hey!

Happy Independence day!

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~

Yes, I celebrate our freedom from the monarchy

I live in the United States

I know her flaws, her fallacies

And I also know what makes her great

I thank the troops that keep her free

The men who've lived and died for her

The brilliant minds, spread over time

Those who are and those who were

Hey! 

Happy Independence Day!

~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~

Freedom's what wars are challenged for

There will be certain death

Shouted out by every man's 

What Patrick Henry said

And there would be more

To reign means war

But hey!

Happy Independence Day!

~~*~~

Teresa Lynn Johnson

Copyright ©2019

Wrdspnr@aol.com 

WORTH THE RISK

It was the 10th of May 

Senior year last day

Went home to kick back and relax

Stopped to grab the mail 

was a post from jail

Had to be my cousin Jack

He said he was afraid

He would call today

Sure hoped that I'd be home

And the more I read

The more he could be dead

He should have left that girl alone

~~~*Chorus*~~~

He wrote it's not fair

With her honeyed hair

And her pretty pink kiss-me-lips

Let me tell you now

You would see just how

Oh, Cousin she was worth the risk

~~*~~

Well he called at eight

Summoned up his fate

His chances were mighty slim

The girl who stole his heart

The Angel's work of art

Her Daddy was the sheriff's kin

It was ten o'clock

When I heard the knock

And when I opened my front door

The farmer's daughter's face

Put me in my place

Here's what he went to jail for

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~

Jack found Aphrodite in a teen aged form

Sittin on a tractor in a field of corn

Seventeen and suntanned from her head to toe

If you're gonna hang she was the way to go

~~*~~

And she was right there

With her honeyed hair

And her pretty pink kiss-me-lips

Let me tell you now

I can see just how

He figured she was worth the risk

~~~*Finale*~~~

Well Jack didn't die

Yeah the judge was kind

So if you're gonna hit don't miss

A new chance at life

With his pretty bride

Oh, buddy she was worth the risk

~~*~~

Teresa Lynn Johnson
Kane Allen Holmes

Copyright© 2019

Wrdspnr@aol.com

WHAT SEPARATES US

I walked into your house today

Looked at the pictures you'd displayed

And tried hard not to cry

Wish I could see you sitting there

Hot cup of tea messed up red hair

I want to look into your eyes

See what I didn't know

How far you'd planned to go

I would not have left your side

Girl, I miss that smile...

~~~*Chorus*~~~

All that used to separate us

was the distance of miles

Talking on the telephone

I pictured your smile

And your laughter 

Brought out mine

All that used to separate us

was time...

~~*~~

I think about you every day

Still cry because you went away

And didn't say goodbye

Wish I could see you once again

Before the world comes to an end

So you could tell me why

I want to look into your eyes

See what I didn't know

How far you'd planned to go

I would not have left your side

Girl, I miss that smile...

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~

You have to know you broke the hearts

Of everyone you left

Because now what separates us is your

death...

We Love you and we miss you , Your memory

 fills our heads

Because now what separates us is your death...

~~*~~

~~~*Chorus*~~~

All that used to separate us

was the distance of miles

Talking on the telephone

I pictured your smile

And your laughter 

Brought out mine

All that used to separate us

was time..

~~*~~

~~~*Finale*~~~

Sometimes the pain's so bad

I can't catch my breath

Because what separates us

Is your death...

~~*~~

Teresa Lynn Johnson

Wrdspnr@aol.com

Copyright © 2019

#suicide #Memories
#Helpless

THE COST OF LOVING

The snow is falling

And the lights blur with my tears

I'm remembering

Her Love throughout the years

As the lights dance

With those flakes so brilliant white

I see the beauty

But not the reason why

~~~*1st Chorus*~~~

The reason why He chose someone

Who'll leave so many lost

When you know He knows the damage

Yeah, the cost

Tell me why's 

The cost so high

~~*~~

I see her in the bleachers 

With the crowd

I hear her on the sidelines 

Screaming loud

Her pretty face at every game

Shouting out that lucky name

Tell me why's

The cost so high

It does not make sense to me

Now she has to fight to breathe

Someone so young 

Should not hurt like she does

Someone we Love

God tell me why

Is the cost so high

~~~*Lyrical Bridge*~~~

Good people live, and love, and try

To make the most out of their lives

And then you strike them down 

Before their time

Why

Why's the cost so high

~~*~~

I just need to know the reason why....

~~~*2nd Chorus*~~~

The reason why You chose someone

Who'll leave so many lost

When I know You know the damage

Yeah, the cost

Tell me why's 

The cost so high

~~*~~

~~~*Finale*~~

I see the beauty of loving deep inside....

But I wonder why.....

Why's the cost so high

~~*~~

TeresaLynnJohnson

Copyright © 2019

Wrdspnr@aol.com

Aunt Patty <3

THAT BEAUTIFUL, MAGICAL, SMILE

You say that you're broken

I believe you

But girl I really need you 

To stay strong

To keep holding on

To whatever magic moved you

For so long

No way to prove to you

The miracles 

That shine on through

That smile

Every time I've doubted life

Hurt so bad I want to cry

I think of all the power

You have shown

Strength I've never known

Don't know what I expect

From  you

Cause the Hell that you've

Been living through

Most people would have 

Gave up as a child

While the rest of us screamed,

"No Fair!"

You pulled magic from thin air

And all the while...

Shared that smile

Yeah I know that you 

Are broken

Known for a long time

But reality is killing me

I'd rather see the smile..

It's the proof 

You have magic

We can see

And it's beautiful

So beautiful to me

And, Yes, I've cursed the fates

Even God with all his grace

As I know you've had to do 

a million times

But you've always smiled

That beautiful 

Magical

Smile

TeresaLynn Johnson

Wrdspnr@aol.com
Copyright © 2019 

For you ...Autumn Marie

I am , as always, in awe! 

Love, Teresa 
#Strength #FriedreichsAtaxia
#Faith