I'M PRETENDING

PRETENDING

I am broken

I cannot be fixed

I have hurt before

But not like this

So I'm pretending

Yeah I'm pretending

that you're here with me

I can't take the pain, the reality

That for now it just can't be

So I'm pretending

I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will

So I'm pretending

Yeah I'm pretending

That you're on the road

Having too much fun 

to bother calling home

Still Pretending....

I keep waiting for it to get better

But there's no way to deal with this

Unthinkable's my only answer

When you were such an amazing kid

No, I can't face the truth...

Life is too hard without you

So lonely without you 

So I'm pretending

I can open the skies to Heaven

Run up to the pearly gates

Beg to meet my Maker

And ask Him why he couldn't wait

Life is too hard without you

And this void I cannot fill

Believe me I have tried to

But I know I never will

I'm pretending

you're not really gone

It's the only way

I keep living on

By Pretending   

Teresa Lynn Johnson

Wrdspnr@aol.com

C2021